Sunday, February 27, 2005

Thursday, February 24, 2005

30 things you didnt know about me yesterday

Hello again .

This was just sent to me so i've filled it on for you all because i know all two of you cant get enough information on my bathroom setup.

Loving this not having to think of stuff to post thing.

if you feel so inclined you can post your own versions.

thst'd be fab.

cheers

me



1. WHAT TIME DO YOU GET UP?
when /if I have to.

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
Ewan McGregor

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
Silver

4. WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW AT A THEATER?
Spongebob Squarepants - The Movie

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Six Feet Under

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
Toast / leftovers depending on what time i get up

7. WITH WHOM WOULD YOU HATE TO BE STUCK IN A ROOM WITH?
Most People

8. WHAT/WHOM INSPIRES YOU?
nature, triumph over adversity, people that get up early

9. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
Jacqueline

10. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
City

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Boysenberry Ripple

13. FAVORITE COLOR?
Dark Purpley Blue

14. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
a small shitty one

16. FAVORITE FLOWER?
Freesia / frangipani cant choose.

17. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD ON VACATION, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
Everywhere

18. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
white with grossly multicoloured tiles that will soon be lilac

19. WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE GROWING UP?
Photographer

20. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
hopefully somewhere I could feed myself.

21. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
Every day and no day

22. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
not a fucking thing

23. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Adelaide

24. WHAT IS YOU FAVORITE SPORT?
dont have one

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?
salt and pepper squid

26. PERSON YOU EXPECT TO SEND IT BACK FIRST?
well im not sending it to anyone so no one

27. WHAT FABRIC DETERGENT DO YOU USE?
the one in the blue box.

28. COKE OR PEPSI?
Dr Pepper

29. ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON OR A NIGHT OWL?
night owl.

30. WHAT IS YOUR SHOE SIZE?
8

when do get my maturity ?

response to Knifey's post that was so long winded I decided to use it here today. hurrah.

Yes,

I too am often amazed at the fact that, at nearly 34, I haven’t got my "adult brain" yet; I seriously thought that something was supposed to happen between 18 and now to make me grow up but nope.

I can sense subtle differences within myself eg the way I deal with people, the way I feel about myself, the amount of weight i've put on :( but if I had to chose any one single defining moment I couldn’t.

I had a child at 22, by myself and I’ve pretty much been that way since, due mostly to the fact that a) I won't settle for just anyone and b) I spend a lot of time in the house being mumsy (on the net)which makes it hard to meet anyone at all let alone someone to settle for. Somehow I still manage to have enough interest generated so that I have at least four people that I could ring (but wont) for a booty call

I don’t smoke, don’t play sport and I don’t like hanging around pubs or people in general for that matter)

in a vain attempt (bootless errand, fool's errand, lost cause, merry chase, red herring, snipe hunt, wasted effort, wasted labour, waste of time) to connect with people outside of the home I registered on some online dating sites.

Fuck what a bad idea

I literally ended up writing such alluring statements on my profile as *I don’t like the beach* and *if one more moron sends me a message I am going to scream* still they thought I was joking.

I DONT WANT A BORING BITTER DIVORCED SOMEONES EX-HUSBAND I AM NOT AN EX-WIFE AND I DONT WANT TO "SETTLE DOWN" I JUST WANT SOME COMPANY ON MY JOURNEY IS THERE NO ONE OUT THERE THAT GETS THAT ??

Ahem.

I too look young for my age (some one thought I was 18 last year but I think she left her glasses at home) most people think my daughter is my sister. I don’t FEEL any different on the inside; just a little ripped off that my outside betrays this.

I am facing the prospect that I am going to be alone forever with no one to rub my neck and wash the dishes or provide sex on tap but still it doesn’t bother me as much as thinking that I am alone mentally, that there really isn’t anyone out there that just understands me, sometimes I feel like I live on planet stepford.

Anyhow this is why I am having a great time in blogland. I'm realising that I’m not quite as alone as I thought I was (mentally).

Geez Knifey sorry to rant/hijack I’ll shut up now. And go and post this on my blog cos it’s the most I’ve written in ages.

fg
xx

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

pack up your troubles

Another day where i wish i could blog from the couch via telepathic means.
Moving is going really slowly. I have taken one box of things to the new house, I went around and took everythign off the walls, put it all in a box and moved them to the corner of a room at the new house, yup, one box, of stuff that was on the walls.

The rest of my stuff is still currently stuffing things, drawers, shelves, cupboards you name it. My stuff is very stuffy in its stuffiness and did I mention I have a LOT of stuff.

What I really wish I could do is move house and go to work from the couch.... telepathically.

I have a few plans as to how I can undertake this massive shifting of stuff real plans, like actual drawings, and lists. Yes I said LISTS ! that, my friends is how much I wish I could do it via remote control Im DRAWING when I could , you know, actually pick somethign up and put it in a fucking box.

The security screens should be on in the next week and a half and Im probably going to be kicked out of here in the next two so things will happen. just not overnight. or the next night, or the night after that.

I do apologise that my entries aren't nearly as witty and insightful as they could/should be workin on that. I'll put it on the list.

put stuff in a box, write witty blog.

out.

fg

Saturday, February 19, 2005

fruity lexicon

Bienvenudo mi casa su casa ( and I totally don't know if that's one or two languages there, if any)
Firstly I apologise, unfortunately all the amazing blogposts I have had in my head the past few days were just that.
it takes a certain dedication to update regularly, especially when I am spending upwards of two to three hours a day reading everyone else's posts (in their historical entirety).

The good (?) news is that as a result of living vicariously through other peoples lives (or just taking comfort that I'm not the only person sitting at home attached to a keyboard of an evening) I have left a few comments, got myself out there on the cyberspace dancefloor and sidled up to the cute guy I cant bring myself to look at but if I stand here and jiggle a bit he might not RUN away so I get to stand next to him for a bit and pretend I don't have to get off my ass and hit a real dancefloor/guy/gym which will have to fucken do for now.

uhh where was I ?

yeh.

In English (sort of) I have been taking babysteps in cyber-land* and actually bandying about my name and address so it seems some have come looking for me. And now I have performance anxiety but you know what ? fuck it. I haven't written for ages and I need to. And doing it on paper when I just KNOW there's no one to say "I understand you" just doesn't cut it.

I'm happy to have visitors, better than feeling like I'm talking to myself I hope that I too can become a blog that you need to check up on, even if its just to be reassured that yep, its the weekend and I'm still here.

Meanwhile my keyboard is being a spastic Mo-Fo and not following instructions, every now and then it decides it wants to YELL and no amount of caps lock bashing will undo it until it feels good and ready to be undone. This makes posting kinda more trouble than I have been willing to get into of late but I aim to rectify this in the near future, there were a few half posts that had me SHOUTING ABOUT NOT GETTING ANY SEX that didn't seem important enough at the time to go back and tone down so they got deleted. don't worry , there will be plenty more of those I'm sure.

I cant remember what else I was posting about, probably I have no life, my daughter gets up my nose with the pre-teen not listening thing, I am facing the reality that I have to move within a week and have to renovate the bathroom today in order to do so and I haven't been to bed from yesterday kinda stuff. whoo hoo.
just you know. stuff.

Love youse all.*

The Flaming Me.

*What Kind of spellchecker tries to replace cyber-land with gibberlins ?? jeez and uh, it didnt recognise the word blog, or fuck for that matter, I will have to attend to this.

**Unless you're a nazi cunt that found me from Darp's blog. If so you can fuck off.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

when life gets in the way

Howdy,
got into Uni, freaking out man, start next week. new house is ready - ish except the floor polisher bastards did a shit job and have to fix bits.went to the big day out after party and got grumpy with my friend for leaving me there after taking some 18 year old home, promptly paid her back by drinking copious amounts of (more) beer and taking TWO guys home, ok well I didnt bring them home and one of them was a knob and it would have been a good idea if id managed to just stick with the one but feh, missing real proper sensible male adult company and yes sex, i am missing the sex, maybe losing one of my jobs, got a phone call tonight about gaining another, still have to actually move house, still babysitting the chinese boy (who should know better the little shit who goes out to buy a phonecard and isnt back 9 hours later) Friend of mines son was killed on his bike last night, rest easy and I hope Dougie wherever you are that its better.
Life goes on, or it doesnt. I aim to be more vigilant in the near future just let me get through the next couple of weeks.
Love
FG