The Return

yada yada did something stupid here i am . need somewhere to post shit to alleviate the need to vent, without the angst and crap that comes from doing it on facebook. lets do these questions again so i don't have to think 

a list of random questions with off the top of my head answers. like 6 years later. 

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss was ages ago  the best kiss. the best. ever. 
2. I am listening to The stupidly loud air conditoner that is pretending its a heater Spotify Shazam playlist
3. I talk a lot of crap   to try to get people to understand me
4. I am dating  no one   a bottle of gin
5. My best friend(s) are a long way away  all over the place and i love them
6. My car is a piece of shit  lilac and still going
7. I hate it when people ask most things  get stuck under my skin
8. Love is like oxygen  oxygen
9. Marriage is something other people do  sigh
10. Somewhere, someone is thinking that things will never get better   hopefully lotsd of people are thinking
11. I'm always wishing i was asleep  that i knew what i wanted
12. I have a secret crush on Noel Fielding   no one at the moment firmly ensconced in recovering from my last one
13. My mobile phone Is fixed. Yay !  old
14. When I wake up in the morning I wish it wasnt morning am going to go straight back to sleep
15.Before I go to bed at night I tidy up wash my feet
16. Right now I am thinking about how much my head hurts  Matt
17. Babies are teenagers in disguise   often ugly but sometimes cute and good for snuggles
18. I get on MySpace to see what Megan has written my space ? lol. ok to be honest i was there yesterday stalking
19. Today I finally got the address changed in my licence 2.5 years after i moved.  admitted defeat
20. Tonight I will drink more red wine and take a super duper painkiler   tonight as in now or like later after much sleep? right now its gin and painkillers. later it will probably be be red wine and painkillers
21. Tomorrow I will probably have a hangover   probably ? lol ... imma write this whole fucking week off.
22. I really want that painkiller, and some cuddles  Matt
23. Someone that will most likely repost this is no one  Me 
24. How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they loved you? i dont fuckin know and meant it ? maybe 3
25. Have you ever thought you would marry someone? yeah   Yep. He died
26. Are you crushing on someone? no  crushing ? no . wissing the complete and absolute shit out of ? yes 
27.Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? I walked into a sign after I first kissed a boyfriend once. that hurt.  yep
28. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend mad? repeatedly  not recently
29. Are you happier single or in a relationship? depends on the relationship im happiest in a good relationship
30. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? No never ever no way. who does that ? Have I meant it when i shouldnt have ? probably
31. Have you ever had your heart broken? yes   its heldp together with spit and rubber bands at the moment.
32. Have you ever broken somebody's heart? i think yes   never intentionally. i think the yongsters call it "friend zoned" now.
33. Think any of your ex's feel the same? as what ?   if they did the ones that count would be here.
12. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? definately  I respond very well to being treated well
13. Have you dated people who were not good to you? often  fuck yes , what a moron
15. Have you dated someone older than you? if by dated you mean fucked, yes. same same
16. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? everyone ? no  most everyones. but i am too fucking nice
17, Do you believe in love at first sight? love no lust yes  I bekleive you can recognise potential for love yes.
 18. Do you want to get married? not for the sake of it but yeah i suppose yes  only if i find the love i know is possible
19. Does heart break really feel as bad as its said to be? yes  worse. much much worse
20. Would you believe your ex if she/he said they still love you? yes but it would annoy me  he never said it but if he came back id let him, eventually
21. Would you date your best male/female friend? if by date you mean fuck ? ...... probably  if i havent already fucked them its a no
22. Have any of your ex's called you by a nickname after the breakup? yeah.  no that 'd be me the dipshit.
23. Do you regret any of your relationships? only the length of time it took me to learn what i had to learn from them and thats it.  fuck the more things change hey ? good news is the time im taking to learn lessons is getting, shorter.

I'm back Bitchezzz

MEMEMEME

Stolen From Twisted Uterus who stole it from Marit who Is someone I dont know.
1. FIRST NAME? B .. somethinsomethin
2. ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Loads of people had names before me I didnt start nufink new there
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? ummm, cant remember (oh the joy of anti-depressants)
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? sometimes, if i have a nice pen.
5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? theres a difference between breakfast and dinner meat? I like Lamb and Chicken. and if this thing means processed crap I choose Fritz.
6. KIDS One Human, two canine.
7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDSWITH YOU? yeah absolutley but I reckon I would have punched myself by now
8. WHERE IS 8 ?
9. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Your reading it.
10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes.
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? No Fucking Way.
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Muesli with fruity bits
13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? only if they are thongs.
14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes.
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Boysenberry ripple
16. SHOE SIZE? small and wide like little webbed rectangles.
17. RED OR PINK? See a Doctor.
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I am a master procrastinator
19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My Ex, no not you asshole the one before.
20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? Yes everyone in the ENTIRE WORLD.
21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Black Pants White and pink shoes (ack).
22. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Clickety Clickety clack
23. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Purple.
24. FAVORITE SMELL? Cooking bacon, White Musk (bodyshop). freshly showered boys (over 18)
25. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Uhhh My Daughter.
26. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? That I am attracted to them.
27. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? First Impressions are good
28. FAVORITE DRINK? Grapefruit juice, or cranberry
29. FAVORITE SPORT? Yuk, me no like sport
30. EYE COLOR? Whitish with slatey bluey greyey circles in them and black circles in those.
31. HAT SIZE? I fuckin hate hats. If I wear one its stretchy (and cold outside)
32. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No. Glasses, yes.
33. FAVORITE FOOD? Cheese.
34. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIE THEATER? Pirates of the Carribean II
35. SUMMER OR WINTER? Spring.
36. HUGS, KISSES OR BOTH? Both. depending on who's offering
37. FAVORITE DESSERT? Lemony things.
38. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Hello is anyone still reading this ?
39. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Most of the human race.
40. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Media Literacies Readings for UNI (yeah right)
41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? Dont have a favourite.
42. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? Nothing.
43. FAVORITE SOUNDS. My Nieces.
44. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles
45. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? That isnt x-rated? probably would say I have a good eye.
46. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? June 19th 1971, Adelaide, South Australia
47. WHO SENT this to you? Stole it from Twisted Uterus
48. The one thing you like most about yourself? My brain
49.Who is the one person who knows you better than anybody? My ex, no not you asshole, The one who died.
50. One thing you would like to say to those you are sending this to? Thanks for listening.